Waiting

Waiting

PAXbaby.com ***Please take caution when reading this heartfelt post; you may be triggered if you have been affected by pregnancy loss. PAXbaby.com Now that you have tried to make a baby, there’s the endless two week wait while you wrestle with the inner turmoil... Read More
Read Aloud with The BFG

Read Aloud with The BFG

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com Our newest adventure in #readaloudrevival is Roald Dahl’s The BFG in which the Giants drink an amazing beverage called Frobscottle.  I challenged each of the kids to design their own magical elixir! The results were varied, but everyone... Read More
PAXmommy Mel’s loss

PAXmommy Mel’s loss

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com “This should be my belly right now. I know five babies was not in our “plan” but now that #5 is no longer here, the pain of the loss runs deep. I never knew how much miscarriage can mess with your hormones, your mind, your... Read More
Read Aloud Revival

Read Aloud Revival

PAXbaby PAXbaby I’m a huge bookworm, but I don’t have much time for pleasure reading. What I do make sure to have time for is to read aloud to my littles.  A favorite activity in my house is to all snuggle in my bed – queen size! – and listen... Read More
Three months

Three months

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com I’m feeling especially grateful tonight for friends near and far who’ve held my hand, rubbed my back, and taught me how to put one foot in front of the other again! It’s been 3 months since I was pregnant last, and not a day... Read More
Hormones & Breastfeeding

Hormones & Breastfeeding

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com When I was miscarrying our eighth baby, breastfeeding helped my body & hormones regulate. By this point in my pregnancy, my milk was drying up quickly, but #toddlercate was happy to nurse and help her mama feel better! #oxytocin... Read More
A tiny placenta print

A tiny placenta print

How does one measure love? Certainly not based on the size of a placenta, but in my case, it’s all I have left of my baby. 15 weeks in my belly, 8 weeks in heaven; my heart will never be whole again but I wouldn’t give back this time for the world. paxbaby... Read More
Big family chat

Big family chat

What a mom of many needs to survive – other than a good baby carrier (or 2!) Determination Grace Strength Sense of humor   Without these, it would be impossible to overcome the obstacles of extreme sleep deprivation, anxiety, breastfeeding issues… Next... Read More
Different

Different

To those who aren’t who they want to be.What they want to be. Where they want be. How they want to be. To those who envisioned their life differently. In a different location perhaps. In a different state of mind. In a different physical body. To all those who... Read More
Seasons of Love

Seasons of Love

“How do you measure a season of love??? 525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear. 525,600 minutes….” When I think about how many minutes and moments PAXdaddy Aaron and I have spent together over our 17 years of marriage, my only wish is that I could... Read More
*graphic birth story*

*graphic birth story*

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com *graphic birth story* Yesterday morning I finished Blaise’s pregnancy with the intense birth of my placenta. What I endured last Saturday in San Diego was the birthing of our baby’s sac and cord. It was deflated and withered just... Read More
Loss.

Loss.

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com   PAxbaby.com   Our sweet family buried a tiny placenta this afternoon; Baby Blaise will be remembered by this beautiful Magnolia tree and the prayers said this afternoon by each of her family members. We have loved and will continue... Read More