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Different

PAXmommy Jillian — Tue, 05 Jul 2016 16:56:56 +0000

To those who aren’t who they want to be.What they want to be. Where they want be. How they want to be.

To those who envisioned their life differently. In a different location perhaps. In a different state of mind. In a different physical body.

To all those who were wishing and hoping but your wishes and hopes didn’t come true or fell through or were forgotten while tending to others’ needs and wants.

To all those have been counting on being, having, feeling, doing something different in some way, in any way.

Standing over here, looking into your every day, I can’t see the full picture; I can’t explain why or what or how or when.

Standing over here, looking into your every day, I only see my own reflection, mirrored in the quiet sorrow in your eyes as you play sweetly with your children. My own reflection caught as still as a photograph, doing a mundane task, tears streaming down your face as you take a moment to grieve alone. My own reflection, a twin to your own emptiness, a twin to your own void, a twin to your own infinite pit of abject sorrow and intense anger. What have you lost? A lost world, a lost soul, a lost life, a lost year, a lost month, week, day, hour, minute…. LOST.

Today I sit poolside, sipping my lemon water, listening to the palm trees sway in the wind and in this quiet moment by myself I am allowed to imagine how this day would have should have could have been. A round belly protruding over my bikini bottom instead of post partum love handles. A blissful list of baby names rotating through my head. A proud expression on my face as someone asks me how many children I have. “8!” I could have said while rubbing my tummy happily. What a lovely moment spent thinking about my would have should have could have, and then… my children are here and fill the space with shouting, laughing, crying, splashing, eating, jumping, swimming, being, and my thoughts are turned again to focus on the here and now. The reality in front of me. Tangible, incredible, magical, these small beings who fill my every minute with themselves. How well they keep my mind occupied to have these thoughts often, and and how well they keep me too busy to stand and look into your every day, but believe me, I feel your sadness and recognize your hurt. Your life, like mine, will continue. Your world, like mine, will slowly begin to spin again. You will wonder how it is that you’re back in the swing of things, back in the saddle, and back on the road; you will wonder how it is that your life has been so changed and yet, that’s okay. It’s just DIFFERENT.

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Seasons of Love

PAXmommy Jillian — Fri, 01 Jul 2016 08:09:17 +0000

“How do you measure a season of love??? 525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear. 525,600 minutes….”
When I think about how many minutes and moments PAXdaddy Aaron and I have spent together over our 17 years of marriage, my only wish is that I could remember each and every memory; the more time passes and the more experiences we’ve had, the more that the good, the bad, and the ugly fade together into one sweet dream. So many hours and days and weeks, months and years we’ve spent together cultivating our personal garden. Each of our amazing children are growing as trees with fruit to nourish us as parents. As each year passes and our trees mature, we are enjoying so much abundant harvest from our personal garden! The seeds were sown with love and care years ago, and now we get to sit back, enjoy the shade and munch on some amazing produce! I’m not saying that it’s all been one long honeymoon; we’ve experienced a blight in the orchard and a few insect infestations, but our life together has been so blessed! With sunshine, Vitamin D, compassion, and communication, I’ve watched our tiny tendrils sprout and stretch into a blissful garden of Eden! Happy anniversary to the love of my life, my personal gardener, and the one who makes ALL our lives go ’round! Here’s to our past 17 years and 17 more, Aaron!

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Your week

PAXmommy Mel — Mon, 10 Nov 2014 15:33:58 +0000

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What does your week look like?
Is your schedule always jam packed?
What are some “life hacks” you do to make your job a little more simple?

Do you pack lunches the night before?
Do you lay clothes on the bed before bed?

In PAXmommy Mel’s house mornings are the worst right now… getting used to having a six year old who needs to get to school, and three 3 and under is challenging. We need as much prepped before morning as possible. Oatmeal in the crockpot, lunches made the night before, backpacks at the door, and everything laid out.

What do you do to make mornings a bit easier, when all you want to do is stay in bed with your newborn??

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2014- The Best is Yet to Come

PAXmommy Mel — Tue, 31 Dec 2013 15:33:29 +0000

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What are *YOU* looking forward to in 2014?

Where will you be babywearing?

Who will you be babywearing?

It really is amazing how much can change in one entire year.

What will 2014 bring for your family?
We cannot wait to share another year with YOU!!!

Lots of love, from the PAXteam

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*happy babywearing*

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PAXbaby #6 is turning…

PAXmommy Mel — Wed, 01 May 2013 06:47:49 +0000

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1 Fish

2 Fish

Red Fish

Blue Fish

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Baby #6 is turning TWO

Look at all that he can DO

He is the apple of their EYE

He is their special little GUY

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Soon, he will be the big MAN

To a new baby sibling, his newest FAN

He will be a big brother and have lots of FUN

With his amazing PAXfamily in the California SUN

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Baby #6 has brought so much JOY

In his two years on Earth, that sweet little BOY

Wishing him laughter, love, friendship & MORE

Perhaps a new hat, and smiles GALORE

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Have a great birthday-eve, for tomorrow is NEW

When you awake, Baby # 6 will be TWO.

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Love from,

the PAXmommies

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*happy babywearing*

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